south n back north

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as it rained we, 5 male ,4 female, went 2 bowlin, than firework.
what i like bout travel is that each day is different. oftn u dont know what u ll do ,what u ll eat, where u ll sleep. full improvisacion.
shit,shit.backpack 2 light. i think i lost somethin. but its my fault. am carefree,careless. n, truth, i like. so i must pay its price.
japan is manga comic.big ,strange bugs. anpaman.
hitchhiked 2 girls in kimono.
sakerajima. volcano.nice lava rd. a free foot onsen.repairin again tentstick.
a nice quiet party.camp at lava trail. full moon inspires 2 do some night activity.
fuck another tentstick broke.
the life of a flower is short n offer nothin but sadness (fumiko hayashi)
ibusuki. 1 n only natural steam sandbath.
akune. camp at nice surferbeach.
... n again tentstick 2 repair.
took 1st swim in jap.went 2 samurai houses in izumi.now yunoko.
sat in free onsen at seaside watchin d colores arround d mountain siuletts from distant islands turn from orange in2 green. camp on white sand 50-100mtr from onsen.nice.
crossed from kumamoto 2 unzen,500y.
japan some places like this.called jigoku.hell. em look like moon surfaces wheer here n there sulforic steam breaks out.
found nice place 4 tent,lookin like a buddhist graveyard, where i should stay n dedicate a day 2 myself.
heat is burnin my strengh n strange ,d coffein of my ice coffee hits me inna head, makes me soft,sensible.
theres no fight 4 freedom as theres no war 4 peace. no bad seed can turn in2 a beautyfull flower.hm
sleeped on playground without tent, got totally fucked up by mosquitos.
ureshino.campin at waterfall.
is not he worse who does wrong even tru he knows its wrong mo than he who does it with ignorance n innocence? is not i d worse motherfucker?
d bug:
i walk .there. a bug.huge. completlealy destroyed, mo dead than alive, movin its legs in agony.compassion transforms his pain in2 my pain. but am barfooted n egoistic n i am afraid 2 free him from pain cos his sufferin would turn in2 my sufferin.
i do it, crushin out his life with my naked foot, n, yes, it hurts. fuck compassion.
truth:i was not barfoot,just write like this 2 make me apear mo cool.

1 reason i fall easily in2 obsession with a stranger may come from d, natural, desire 2 posess somethin 1 do not have.this instinct of huntin n xperimentatin multilpied with my dreamerism, d egopushin of flirtin, d curiosity of d new n unxplored might b a tolerabile xcuse i could give xie n hope she 4give me somethin that have not even yet started.
u understand alfio? n u, xie?
xie ,b carefull of me. d mo truth i speak d mo i lie.
opues, theres oft mo truth inna lie than in truth itself.
tip: dont listn 2 what i say ,but mo 2 what i do not say.
fuck. again. tentstick broke.

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Comments

[Rutger]

Actually, your writing is quite nice. This entry is good, both story and meditation. Universala and personal. And always the tentstick....