Day 49: Hair Dye (1st Time EVER) Friday, May 1, 2009
7:00am: I woke up and laid on my bed. Why do I feel so lonely?
7:15am: I woke up again?! I am LATE! I quickly changed my clothes, rushed upstairs, washed my face, brushed my teeth. I didn't even bother putting on my contacts! I ate breakfast very quickly and washed my dishes.
7:45am: I left on time and made it to the station...early. I turn on the Zune and listen to music. I am really lonely. I want to be with someone in Japan (but NOT just anyone, I rather be alone than be with someone I don't like).
9:00am: I went to the computer lab to print out the skit project for a Japanese teacher to check.
9:13am: I made it to my classroom.
9:15am: Japanese class began with Yagi-sensei. She gave us a a few readings of Japanese. And I was happy to know that I can read in Japanese.
10:45am: Class ended. I asked Frank something. We're all excited for Frank. I can't post what he said and did until later. It's a secret. *wink*
11:00am: Part 2
My look...No one is ever satisfied with their look... even me.
oh well. :)
Japanese class started with Matsuki-sensei. She reviewed yesterday's kanji. Then, we role-played on asking for directions...but I was confused and I didn't want to think anymore. I wanted to go home and start golden week! Golden week is when most Japanese people are off (especially school) for about a week! It's like Spring Break! I'm going to the dance club! Our Japanese homework is to write what we did in Golden week.
12:30pm: Class ended. Everyone had their own thing to do. I REALLY am lonely! I'm mad that I can't accept just doing things by myself. I heated my bento. I texted Eileen because she said that she's going to show me her bento...but she didn't text back. Lalaa English Club wasn't in the cafeteria...
1:00pm: I went to GL-Net in Building 11 and one of the rooms was already full. I feel like the world hates me for making me feel this way. I don't expect anyone to care about me in Japan because they all have themselves to care for...but it really hurts me inside. In Chicago, I am always being taken cared for by my family and Jon. And Aimee is there as my companion. It really does hurt and I have an empty feeling. I went to another room and talked mostly in English, because I'm too stressed to bother talking in Japanese. I want to study.
1:30pm: I went to my next class. JT smiled and asked what I've been up to. I was about to say I'm lonely. But instead, I said that I didn't do much. I just want to go out to the club. Ryan was sitting with us. I wondered why he changed his seat, but I'm glad he's with us because I bond with him well too.
2:30pm: Human resource class ended early and walked around with Ryan. He showed me some cool features in his I-Phone and I was SO AMAZED!!!!! He reminds me of my brothers because he's into computers and stuff.
3:00pm: I split with Ryan and went to my next class, History. In history class, a Japanese girl sat behind me. I introduced myself to her before, so I said hi. She asked me if I cut my hair in Japanese! But I paniced and accidentally spoke English. She got confused and I said sorry...I'm American. She, Nana, said she thought I was Japanese. Then, I started to speak with her in English and Japanese. She's very good in English, so when I panicked, I spoke in English. I'm so useless....
3:15pm: History class began and I was very interested in Japan colonizing places in Asia. I'm sad that Japan is so small. Oh...I was actually confused. I thought Japan and Germany were a team. But I found out that they were part of the Allies with Britain. Since I was little, I always thought Allies were the "good guys" because the other team killed Jews. And Japan was part of the "bad guys." At the end of history class...I FINALLY know why Japan attacked Pearl Harbor in America! Apparently, Japan just wanted the islands that America owned at the time and Japan was very weak. Japan's army thought democracy countries were pussies, so they attacked Pearl Harbor thinking that America wouldn't attack back. Japan's navy was against it but they were peer pressured to do it. Then, America freaked out Japan with it's humongous bomb. That's when Japan's army was like "My bad!" And Japan's navy was like "I told you so."
And that explains why America and Japan are friends. I always wondered why they didn't hate each other. Japan and America are COOL countries!
Yea...that's how I interpret history. And that's why history is my weakpoint. (I had a hard time spelling interpret...I pronounce it as "intrepit." "Sounding out" SUCKS)
4:45pm: Nana and I talked a little bit when we left the class. We exchanged contacts. I realized that her personal bubble is smaller than mine. Being in Japan, makes me realize how American I am. I headed home.
5:30pm: I texted my host mom that I will be late coming home.
5:45pm: I went back to the hair salon and colored my hair ($42). OMG! I freaked out! I am NOT doing this again! I wanted to look "more Japanese," but I got the OPPOSITE affect. Oh well...I spent money on this...I might as well "show it off." I'm so embarressed. haha...I wonder what my mom would say...
7:20pm: I made it to my host home. Manami and Daiki said that they think my new hair looks good. But I get the feeling that they TRULY think my natural hair is better. But I just know they don't want to hurt my feelings. Same with my friends...online and in my texts. This is so embarressing! I ate yakisoba and rice. Daiki and Manami told me that the rice doesn't taste good, but I like it. Mieko, Daiki's friend?, was over, so I talked to her too. But her Japanese is HARD to understand.
9:00pm: I went to my room, checked e-mail, and talked to Jon for an hour. I researched useless things online and texted my friends. Everyone is doing their own thing during the week. Kuya Lenbell couldn't hang out with Ate Reci, Aimi, and me, so our "family day" was changed to next Saturday. I decided I will go to the club tomorrow night, whether with friendsor not. I don't care, I'm going to do what I want to do.
3:00am: I went to sleep. I left listed to B96 online, as I went to sleep on my bed. I'm pissed off that I want to be by myself and at the same time I want to be with people. I'm too confusing to fix my feelings.
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