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Published: April 16th 2013
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Egg man
Fresh egg delivery! There are no words to describe what has happened to me in the last 48 hours. Ive hit my highest high and yet felt my lowest low, all in the same day. My moment of clarity made everything connect, for a moment all my questions were answered, that feeling i will never forget. But with answers comes more questions. I am learning to balance my yin and yang. That roller coaster, that we call life, is a beautiful ride. Im so grateful for being here, it has opened my eyes and my heart to a higher meaning, a clearer purpose for why i am here. Ive been searching, for a way to change the world, for a way to be proud of who i am and what i am doing. Atop that mountain i looked deep inside myself, and i realized ive carried the answer with me all along. With everything that i have done, the bad, the ugly, the brave and the good, im perfectly balanced in the world. It is as simple as a smile, and as beautiful as a lone flower. The simplicity complexes my mind, and stretches my soul to every corner in the world. My awareness
Louzi temple
Map of the temple. By far my favorite temple of xi'an is growing, and i am far from perfect. But when that moment of true understanding happens, its blissful. I want to bottle it up and keep it forever, but it still slips from my hands in moments of stress and frustration, my mind and heart becomes blind, and selfish. Am i just trying to survive? Am i just trying to protect myself from what im scared to learn and understand? The fear holds me back from moving forward. What am i truly afraid of? Last night my classmate john asked me a very serious question.. Why do i want to be the hero? Why do i want to change the world? For me, there are no words to answer that question but there is a feeling, there is a deeper meaning, ive felt it before. I know i am here to change myself. China's culture, their way of life, feels so familiar, and i still know there is so much to learn. At the end of the day my gratitude explodes from my heart. I am open, and completely willing, no matter how hard or stressful things are or get, to grow, and change myself to better understand the world
At peace
Hot day in heaven! and most importantly, myself.
My heart goes out to the victims of the boston marathon bombing. Im proud of lisa (my moms cousin) for placing in the race and im so grateful she and my family were unharmed. my heart aches for the families who lost a loved one yesterday.
Tonight is my first night in Wuyi, the hospitality is amazing and the room im staying in is beautiful. After breakfast we get a tour of the campus and we are attending a lecture our other teacher Thuy is giving. he is the first evergreen teacher to do this and we are excited to build a relationship with the school and students. Im working hard on becoming more confident in speaking my chinese. Everyone is patient with my struggling pronunciation and im learning so much everyday. Practice practice practice.
We spent 25 hours on the train to get here.. But its so worth it!
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Sarah
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You are loved and missed. So great to hear about not only your travels, but what is going on inside your head. Hooping is not the same without you!